Third Week of August!

This week was a bit tiring for me. I am feeling worn out, and not as joyful, trusting, or loving. God is certainly working out trials in my life to help me depend on His faithfulness. Praise God for that.

Giving Thanks
-For giving me energy to do all sorts of random errands this week. a night in my pops office to help with work, grabbing all my family's forgotten goods, bank trips, cookie butter trips, ikea trips, post office trips. I was glad to do everything! I cant believe I survived!

-For my job letting me have another week off to go on this vacation. It was sweet of them to allow this before even hiring me.
-For another consistent week of zumba with my girl marika! :) we enjoyed that class!!!!
-For Ruby welcoming Pam and myself over to her beautiful homey home! She cooked us mexican style pizza, and we talked, discussed chapter 1 of excellent wife, and prayed for one another! LOVE THEM.
-For beautiful skies during the day and night. This week every day I kept telling someone- DUDE LOOK AT THE SKY RIGHT NOW. the three things I enjoy most about creation are skies, animals, and flowers! i mean come on look at these!!

-For a Disneyland date with my sweet boyfriend. He knows I am going through a hard time and we were going through ruckus as he seems to have misplaced his pass, but his patience, constant grace towards me, his ability to trust God for us and when I am hurting is such a big blessing.

-For great conversations and dinner at Coconut Bay with other Crossview couples :) We enjoyed sharing stories and eating delicious Thai food!

-For time with JUH my cousin. We finally caught up after a loong time of not seeing one another for quality catch ups. I took him to pieology- i am a bit obsessed. its bad!

-For Jose to teach Lamentations. I was really really blessed by his teaching. I have never heard him teach and this honestly made me fall more in love with him and how God is growing him! Praise the Lord! It is a great book of hope in our Lord to recognize our sin, our judge, teacher, hope in christ, and repent from sin!

Prayer Requests:
I sent this to my church tonight.
"Pray that I have alone time with Jesus! Please pray that as I see the beautiful handiwork of God in the oceans and sunsets, I will remember that God is mindful of me and I bless His name. Please pray my soul is revived and my trust is in my Rock and Redeemer."
-For intentional conversations with my family (immediate and extended) in Hawaii and that God would save them!
-For a FUN TRIP to hawaii and major bondage with my fam, i am OOBER excited!!!!!
-For Jose and I to guard each others hearts well and exalt Jesus in time of doing this.

Disciplines of a Godly Woman - Relationships

Church
We must learn to submit to God's idea of the church for He instituted it and it is of supreme importance to Christ! He gave himself up for her! He values the fathering and the body depends upon the proper function of each individual parts. It is beautiful to me that people of various background with individual baggage are called to work in a harmonious relationship each carrying out our work that is a gift and responsibility. In order for this to work we must take our cues from our head- which is Christ! There is constant giving to and receiving from each other! :)Women must not preach or exercise elder authorities! We must joyfully live out God's good order that is best for us! I shall not go pick what scripture I would like to listen to and disregard those that seems unpleasant to me; but instead may God help me lovingly embrace it.

Singleness
Although being in a relationship and Lord willing will be a wife in the future, this was absolutely helpful. God bestows dignity and honor to a position that tends to be regarded as less than desirable. He chooses to involve us in His plans that are delightful and trustworthy. There are many ministry possibilities inherent in it. She will deal with issues like loneliness, but praise the Lord that we are able to embrace it for the sake of the gospel and in there our life comes together.

Marriage
It requires holiness. Lord willing, I will be able to serve, respect, bless and forgive my husband. My marriage must reflect Christ and His bride, the church who model sacrificial love and submission. This was God's plan from the beginning of time. Us being created in his image were created to enjoy a deep unity. We have been given instinctively different roles where the man leads and we are to follow! The trinity has an order as do much we do! God is worth obeying and his plan worth preserving. It is a cultural norm to associate weakness and inferiority to helper, but being a helper is divine! The world tells us to pursue personal power and prestige but God tells us to gracefully develop a spirit filled with the Holy Spirit and gentle. Pursue meekness and self control! Respect his position. Real love is intentional and an act of will. Even if he doesn't deserve it, give loving respect.

Nurturing
We are called to embrace this discipline! It means to nourish, further the development of, or train. I must be informed and intentional as I train, Lord willing my daughter(s) or other young girls in my life to live for the kingdom of God. This comes by committing my thoughts and actions to the standard of the Word of God. This is a gift and privilege to be a model. Even when we are exhausted from our own duties, let the needs of children penetrate our hearts- care for the suffering and needy. It would be a powerful witness to adopt! We must trust God to enable us to give us the strength, wisdom, resources, and support. Every child who grows in the love of the Lord has the potential to reach many others :)

Disciplines of a Godly Woman - Character

Mind
The brain was created to have the mind of Christ. I need to program it wisely- never leaving it unguarded, unthinking, undisciplined and have thoughts >> true, noble, right, pure, lovely, and admirable! I need to take better control of what comes in and what goes out. God calls me to His Word and a discipline in this! I need continual exposure to it and apply it. Receiving guidance, wisdom, and accountable is valuable! Reading good books and utilizing all the resources in this age (blogs, podcasts,) will magnify and illuminate the life giving truth for us! We can possess the mind of Christ, think His thoughts, hear His heart, and do His works!

Contentment
I like what Pauls says that you he had to LEARN how to be content and that godliness with contentment is great gain. We are bombarded with Satan's suggestions to allure us away from depending on the Lord. Unhappiness is caused by sin and it destroys our lives. True contentment can only come from God alone and knowledge of Him! His attributes and actions, His plans and our role in them is amazing! This is my problem: To be content with little is difficult for us because we fail to trust God to provide what we need. Instead we worry and plan. Don't lose confidence in God!

Propriety
This means to be appropriate and suitable- actions that do not bring shame to the gospel and to Christ. It demands submitting to God's will in areas that we either deny exist or that we'd prefer to think are none of His business. I desire to rid of my pride Please pray for me that I am able to rid of sin in the way I dress (but instead put on good things of Christ, strength and dignity!), speech (my cutting remarks or words that heighten my self righteousness) and attitude (pride)

Perseverance
I pray that I suffer well. that God perfects me through this, that it is used as means of spreading the gospel and seeing God. Through attacks of Satan, may I never give up but take heart and endure. I will not say that God isn't worth it! In these moments I want to validate the reality of the gospel to the watching world. May I bless His name!!! It was interesting reading about her remarks on Peter- God's will for Peter included him being sifted by Satan, but before that it came before Jesus's prayers and the merciful hands of God. I enjoyed what she wrote here- Whatever irritating, insignificant duties or grand scale tragedies we may suffer- this is God's will for us in the Gospel- to persevere and submit to God to be God!

Disciplines of a Godly Woman - Soul

I am attempting to rid of every tendency, association and habit that impedes godliness. I am striving to direct my energy, and purposefully train and make a serious commitment to God.Through this I hope to not be legalistic or self centered but because I love God and I want to please Him :)I read a majority of this book in Las Vegas and finished it up today! It was written by the oh so wise Barbara Hughes!

Gospel
It is about what God has done and nothing we have earned. God has always had a plan to restore us to what we were created to be- people made in His image, joyfully living under His loving rule and blessing because of what Christ did on the cross (died for our sins, buried and raised on the third day). The bible is for my benefit and makes my heart glad! We are sinners (who constantly fall to self centeredness, envy, greed, rebellion, lust, exploitation of others, etc) who rebel against God's good plan and can be saved from God's wrath. We then become children of God and members of His family, the church, and partners with all the saints for the sake of this Gospel. We either try to run our lives our own way and reject God as ruler or submit to Jesus as Lord and rely on his death and Resurrection.

Submission
This has become a term that is now offensive and trashed in our culture. Christians are called to willingly and cheerfully submit to what we know and trust about God. Jesus did just that as he came in the flesh and dwelt among us. He had to pray in order the obey the Father, and the Father heard His prayer because of His reverent submission. We need to be like Jesus who knew His identity- where He came from, where He was going, and His purpose on earth! The difference with Him is that He was also all powerful but his humility was shown when He came to die for us! This will bring us joy- to daily choose God's ways over our own and submit to His loving rule and order.

Prayer
Prayer bends our will to God's will. It is the source of power for growth and perseverance. Meditation brings about revival, wisdom, and increased faith. Confession and repentance should happen whenever we sin and on a regular basis through thought, word, and deed! It restores our relationship with Him and brings us back into His favor rather than being distant and avoiding Him. I need to work against my wandering mind and pursue peace and quiet often so I can make my prayers more frequent/on-going and fervent. This way I can always ask to resist temptation, for wisdom, power, self restraint, protection of others, growth, and conviction! Praise God for the Holy Spirit that prays on our behalf and joins me in what I ought to pray for! May my every petition be a reflection of my yielding every part of my personality, ambition, relationship, and hope to God! Through this I hope to more so revere and adore my Lord and give thanks to His worthy self.

Worship
My goal is and should always be that God be pleased and glorified by what I do. As for the church gathering- when we sing, pray, listen, and submit to the teaching of God's work- unity and fellowship will naturally follow as the evidence of the generous grace of God. May my worship be God centered, Christ centered and Word Centered! May whatever happen on Sunday equip me to serve God throughout the rest of the week

More Pictures From YWAM Vegas

The Holiness of God

Yesterday I finished reading this book by R.C. Sproul. I think I was putting it on the back burner of my book list but when I read a chapter in the middle our loud with Jose and Danny (ch 4)- I was totally hooked! This book really helped shape my view on The Lord's holiness. I would love to share quotes and points that really stretched me!

Chapter 1. The Holy Grail
Knowing that God created the world out of NOTHING blows my mind. I want to make it my prayer that God's name is more hallowed! Creation was a divine imperative! He shouted and things started to happen! AND LOOK HOW WE WERE CREATED! "Then God stooped to earth and carefully fashioned a piece of clay. He lifted it gently to His lips and breathed into it. The clay began to move. IT began to think. IT began to feel. It began to worship. IT was alive and stamped with the image of its Creator." WOW WOW

Chapter 2. Holy Holy Holy
Holy is the only characteristic of God that is highlighted three times in a row! Did ya know that?! "God appears, people quake in terror, God forgives and heals. From brokenness to mission is the human pattern...God redeems the self. He heals the self so that it may be useful and fulfilled in the mission to which the person is called" (pg 40-41) I want to mourn over my sin against God but yet remember when He forgives me, my guilt is removed from that as well. Thank you God for always cleansing my soul, renewing my Spirit, and being abounding in grace.

Chapter 3: The Fearful Mystery
I want to be more attracted to His holiness rather than being terrified! I do not want to dread His demands or be protective over my security. It was also important for me to read that God isn't just love. He is a holy love. Same with justice being a holy justice, holy mercy, holy knowledge. I desire to have a fearful and reverent heart.

Chapter 4: The Trauma of Holiness
"Sinful misery does not love the company of purity." (pg 69). That statement really convicted me and the hold some of my sins have on me. I am wrestling with it and want to be completely and utterly undone in front of my King so He can do His will. "The presence of Jesus represented the presence of the genuine in the midst of the bogus. Here authentic holiness appeared; the counterfeiters of holiness were not pleased." This reminds me of how many times I am humbled of my selfish, prideful self when I fall into the hands of God.

Chapter 5: The Insanity of Luther.
I hadn't known too much about Martin Luther until NOW. He was bold, sought the Lord when stuck in guilt (a troubled sinner thinking his merits would assuage Him), searched for His truth, God poured beautiful grace on Him to show him that he was indeed loved by the King. God helped him to lay down his life for the truth and bid his soul to Him! A just God is surely able to accept an unjust man. As humans, we carry blemishes of our imperfections of our inner motivations. Being justified by faith means "the justice of God is that righteousness by which through grace and sheer mercy God justifies us through faith... If you have true faith that Christ is your Savior, then at once you have have a gracious God, for faith leads you in and opens up God's heart and will, that you should see pure grace and overflowing love. This is to behold God in faith that you should look upon his fatherly, friendly heart, in which there is no anger nor ungraciousness." (pg 114-115)

Chapter 6: Holy Justice.
This chapter gave me a great amount clarity. Re-reading the stories of Nadab and Abihu and Uzzah. I was able to see the perfect reasons of God's justice while all this time I assumed God was a tad hard, a bit brutal to some poor fellas. I knew I dare not soften the punishment of God. Now I am able to hopefully explain this to others who reject Christianity because of God's wrath. With Nadab and Abihu, God clearly gave with no ambiguity instructions of their privilege they would have to minister before a holy God where He would show Himself holy and will be honored in the sights of all people. However, when they decided to offer strange incense- they were acting in clear defiance, blatant rebellion, inexcusable profaning of the Holy Place, a sin of arrogance! Dang. Then Sproul spoke of Uzzah who touched the ark with his hand- which seemed to be an act of reflex, heroism to save this sacred ark of the Lords. But then he explained that Uzzah knew exactly what his duties were and had been trained thoroughly for his calling. This sin was an act of presumption and assumed his hand was less polluted than the earth which is an obedient creature of what God tells it to do! What a different light in comparison to how I have read the Old Testament. "We are the image bearers of the holy and majestic King of the cosmos...We have not used the gift of life for the purpose God intended...Sin is an act of supreme ingratitude toward the One to whom we owe everything to, the One who has given us life itself..We are saying, "God, Your law is not good. My judgement is better than Yours. Your authority does not apply to me. I am above and beyond your jurisdiction. I have the right to do what I want to do, not what You command me to do." (pg 140) We are not owed mercy we feel we deserve. Let us not blame God for the bitterness in our hearts and think we deserve more grace. He is not obliged to treat us all equally. It is already undeserved! Jesus was the One to Whom injustice was done to! He was the only innocent One to be punished by God- it was most just and most gracious- Him carrying our sin and becoming repugnant to the Father. IT WAS DONE FOR US

Chapter 7: War and Peace with a Holy God
I must learn to want this even if it makes me uncomfortable. "For the transforming power of God to change our lives, we must wrestle with Him. We must know what it means to fight with God all night if we are also to know what it means to experience the sweetness of the soul's surrender." (pg 168) Let me say like Job- Though He slay me, yet will I hope in Him. I think this chapter describes the season I am in right now. May I not be ignorant to God's perfect wisdom. This part was like AHHH so good!!!- God answered Job's questions not with words but with HIMSELF!! As soon as that happened, Job was satisfied!!!!! It was all he needed, and he left the details in His hands. Oh my gosh, I need to do this. Allow me to see the sin I commit against God but in those moments of brokenness that Jesus is the mediator who keeps the peace and is my peace and my advocate to the Father!

Chapter 8: Be Holy Because I Am Holy
"I have committed many sins in my life. Not one sin has made me happy." (pg 193) Sproul then went on to define the difference between happy and pleasure. What was also new for me to learn was knowing that there are sins that are "major" and "little" although no matter what they are, we should need a Savior and forgiveness from them! May I be saved from self righteousness and a works based faith. May the Holy Spirit be the one to bring forth fruits because He knows what holiness is and works to produce that in me through sanctification.

Chapter 9: God in the Hands of Angry Sinners.
I am going to straight quote different parts of this chapter (some parts taken from Jonathan Edward's sermon) because it was powerful in describing His wrath that is- divine, fierce, everlasting. It goes from pg 211-222. "We violate His holiness, we insult His justice, we make light of His grace. These things can hardly please Him...It is nothing but His hand that holds you from falling into the fire every moment...Almost every natural man that hears of hell flatters himself that he shall escape it; he depends upon himself for his own security...Unless we are born of the Spirit of God, unless God sheds His holy love in our hearts, unless He stoops in His grace to change our hearts, we will not love Him. He is the One who takes the initiative to restore our souls. Without Him we can do nothing of righteousness. Without Him we would be doomed to everlasting alienation from His holiness. We can love Him only because He first loved us. To love a holy God requires grace, grace strong enough to pierce out hardened hearts and awaken our moribund souls." Now that is the truth whether it scares or comforts you Put your faith in Christ alone! Let me grow in adoration and reverence because He is indeed lovely and majestic.

Chapter 10: Looking Beyond the Shadows
This is my sin. "We distort our knowledge of Him by replacing Him with an image that we create ourselves. This is the essence of idolatry: replacing the reality with a counterfeit. We distort the truth of God and reshape our understanding of Him according to our own preferences, leaving us with a God who is anything but holy" (pg 230) I am thankful in know that I choose to rebel against my Father- who's handiwork is evident in all of nature. that He still chooses to adopt me. Being a child of His, I am lucky that He is a beautiful God who has no ugliness and distortion in His character. The fact that He chooses us to us to be His heirs and give us value.. I just cannot understand! Thanks be to God!

Chapter 11: Holy Space and Holy Time
God's sovereignty in every place and every time moment is comforting to me. What I took out of this chapter were the joyful reasons to celebrate Sabbath and the Lord's Supper. For Sabbath it is to commemorate God's work of creation, His work of redemption, and and the future promise of the consummation of redemption of eternal rest in Heaven. For the Lord's Supper, it is to look to the past instructing believers to remember and show forth Christ's death by this observance, to focus on the present moment where Christ meets with His people to nurture them and strengthen us in our sanctification, and it looks to the future to the certain hope of our reunion with Christ in Heaven where we will participate in the banquet feast of the Lamb and His bride (pg 261 & 264)

A Weekend of Celebrations

Love love love being able to celebrate my friends special days!

It was Praise's birthday this past week and it was hard to speak to her without blowing the surprise at Redondo Beach! I really get ancy when holding such a secret! The drive was quite long, but luckily Jose drove :D We enjoyed potlucking it up with delicious snacks and sandwiches. We surprised Praise after learning she herself was surprised in the morning running a 5K!!! What the!!!!! We walked around on the beautiful pier that Ive never been to! There were fishermen, good eats, sport playing, children adventures, and people chalking on the sidewalk! So, of course we ventured to draw in a box ourselves! I think my church family enjoyed each others company!

My dearest came home to help do chores around my house which I think my papa appreciated and im most thankful for his sweet heart and willingness to learn from him.

Sunday went to Crossview Church LA and heard THE GOSPEL as PJ highlighted the bible and explained five points: God Promises The World We All Want, We Spoiled God’s Good World, We Can’t Create God’s New World, We Can Enjoy God’s New World Because of Jesus, Jesus-Followers are God’s New People, The Church, Waiting for God’s New World.

I then headed to Sammie's house for a SUPRISE bridesmaid get together :) She asked eight girls including myself to be in her wedding party :) She presented us with cute gifts and we ate one of my favorite breakfasts from her house. we girl talked of wedding details and layed out by her pool :)

I went home because I am exhausted to be quite frank! I watched tv, read, did my laundry, packed for hawaii, and tried to remain sane with everything that is happening. I am really looking forward to this vacation-God is really generous to allow it to happen with my work so I will really try to spend it with Him and honor Him all the while. :)

Second Week of August!

My week has been quite interesting...

Mostly personal trials but in encountering them I see my sin of pride and control. I also see my sin of lacking trust in my Heavenly Father. Read Isaiah 40, Psalm 37 & 16. I was convicted in seeing that I was getting my hope from the wrong places/people and that is why my hurt was heightened. I have to be able to let go of my control and grip on those I care about and let them have their space. I need to love more sacrificially and unconditionally. May Jesus be a complete molder of my actions thus going forward. In all this midst, I am THANKFUL i have redemption in my Savior Christ who will work in these situations for the ultimate good and for my endurance. It was funny, I was asking God for trials because I wanted that desperate affection for Him again, and here it comes. I was like WHYYY but now i see it as AHHH this is good. Pray that I will take heart!!!

Giving Thanks (& there are MANY):
-For zumba and time with Marika and our 30 min catch up sesh:)
-Being able to talk with my sister about life and preparing her to leave for Hawaii
-For dinner with PJ & Frances. although it was chaotic that day with new baby ARI being born to Yek and Reese, they still cooked for us and poured wisdom into us both! Loved seeing the lessons being taught to their kids in a multitude of ways to Lord willing grow them into lovers of Jesus!
-For conversations with my church family Danny and Praise who will call me, listen to the aches of my heart, and point me to Christ so that my hope is in none by Him!
-For being able to help out my dad's company after my work- so he doesnt have too much pressure on him. He does plenty for this family :) We were able to enjoy time together with Jose at Pieology (my pops has never been there !) i always love showing him new food. he loooves food! It was soo funny giving him his birthday present which if you didnt see on my instagram- DUCK CALL. from duck dynasty! haha
-For lunch with Sammie :) I miss seeing her weekly on Sundays so times like this are extra special for me!
-For FINALLY a meet up with Pamela. Oh weve been missing each other the last couple of months, but it is so good to be back in the Word enjoying the Lord together.
-For studying the book of Jeremiah and seeing the glory of Jesus with my church fam. MIND BLOWN.

Prayer Requests:
-For God to be my ROCK in my trials. If it is His will, for there to be quick reconciliation. If it is not His will to be reconciliation, may I cling to Him even more.
-For God to save my family from their sins and that they hear the gospel ASAP and faith comes through that!
-For me to be more in my reading, prayer, and enjoying the Lord by resting.
-For Jose and I to realize we are two selfish people and if we fully yield to God with all weve got, we are able to love one another more than ourselves.

Current Burdens

If anyone knows me, you will know that I struggle with self esteem and self worth issues. I see my sin in trying to make a name for myself. In this present day, I find myself in a swarm of thoughts. Financial plans. Pursuing marriage and seeing what are the steps to get to that. Christian sisters who find temporary happiness in created things rather than the Creator. Friends bailing, forgetting, pushing, delaying, slandering, neglecting. Family divided over Jesus. Being a sinful person can be so hard. When I glare at my sin- seeing my impatience, anger, idolizing self- it is difficult for me to think I am loved by the God of the heavens and earth. Please pray that I am able to seek counsel and wisdom from the perfect God who is able to give me complete peace. Please pray that I go to Him with my petitions and praise Him for His love endures forever. In this afflictions, I must pick up my cross, deny myself and follow Jesus. Please pray that God makes Himself known in my heart so that I am able to stop throwing myself this pity party and worship the Lord and enjoy Him for who He is and what Jesus did on the cross for me. My heart and flesh are failing, but SURELY JESUS IS MY PORTION FOREVER.

YWAM Las Vegas

HELLO! It is nice to be back home because I am most energetic and excited to share with you my trip partnering with Chinese Evangelical Church and Youth With a Mission to speak the gospel to the streets of Las Vegas! Going into the trip- all I could think about was the people who lived there- the brokenness of girls who put their identity in the way they dress, and throwing away the thought of modesty and purity. then at the same time, there are girls selling away their bodies or are being trafficked:( the addictions that are there- gambling, drinking, drugs, lust. i was just pumped like i want people to see there is absolutely no joy in this. I understand the feeling of rejecting God! I was excited but also nervous I would be the odd duckling because I am going with a church located in San Diego- not knowing anyone really. I have not grown up in a church as well so I missed out on all those retreat times, growing up with other kids my age in the church, and seeing that culture. But OF COURSE, God is so kind to me giving me kids to lead well, pour into, and listen to their life stories. These kids- full of rowdiness from time to time- have such a big zeal to talk to others about God, love on one another, and have a desire to worship the Lord! The food there was delish for being mass produced for 38 people! We would also do chores daily to keep the place clean which we gladly did so for our hosts! Every day we would also break into small groups of 7-9 people, talking about outreaches, testimonies, and games :) We had some free time in the city as well and played scavenger hunt around the strip. We slept in bunkbeds and were split into two rooms- 8 girls per room. There we would rest, read, talk to one another and get ready for our days! We had leaders meetings every other night in which we did pros and cons, and how we could be more intentional with the kids. We had spontaneous singing sessions to give praise our Lord deserves! The YWAM staff had teaching moments as well to strengthen our evangelizing, understanding of human trafficking, and discipleship. We played at a park with local kids and adults and were able to have a blast with the Dreamkids foundation. We did skits at the end which was hilarious!! It was a blessing to see kids that have a strong calling for missions long term and short term. What a week! Now for the outreaches to evangelize to others to make people wrestle with the thought of Christ, and praying for converts as well :) We would go up to people and ask them simply if they would like prayer for anything. I was rejected about.... 70% of the time! But the people we were able to speak with made me realize I never regretted once just posing the question. I need to ask this more of my church, my family and friends. It was beautiful and seeing broken people (like myself) giving their petitions to the Lord and also those who are already Christians willing to be prayed for too! We would also do a survey attempt asking for people what their beliefs were. That one I was rejected the MOST! I was thinking to myself, would I ever stop to talk to these people.. probably not.... I was only able to speak and pray with one lady. I still found God making me more bold to speak with strangers. We went to the strip at night with 6 foot tall crosses to carry it along the streets. This one I loved- it created conversations, people to stick make decisions over what they believed in. I felt eyes glaring at me but it made for great talks and wrestling when i would be following behind the cross and seeing people be offended or blessed by the sight of it. We were able to share out thoughts on. We also went in pairs of 2 to freely go up to people any way we liked. My partner knew how to make balloon animals, so we brought that to a kids area, he would freely make kids a sword, a flower, or a hat- and that freed me to speak with the parents while they waited :) It was amazing. We had a long car ride to and from Vegas to San Diego. They were filled with reflections on the trip, Mafia games, and conversations with the one who asked me to go- Austin! During all of these trips I was able to talk with people who believed in Christ, Mormonism, Judaism, Utopian-ism?, Catholicism, and Atheism. It was fantastic. God taught me how to trust not in my might by His Spirit. He was constantly humbling my haughty heart as I do not deserve His sweet mercy yet He chose to give it to me. Every day He would encourage me with conversations, with more of Himself to seek wisdom from a beautiful perfect Savior.

I do hope one day, if the Lord calls me to the unreached people groups, that I will respond obediently and joyfully. Vegas taught me a lot and I can only imagine what evangelizing to people who are unreached would respond. Faith comes by hearing and I do hope I am able to speak with more with anyone with boldness, truth, compassion, and humility :) Please continue to pray for salvation of the people of Las Vegas, for the city to rid of its openness to sin, and God to give me opportunities to go on more missions or talk with anyone who God calls me to!

Now heres to a buttload of pictures :)

You're Awesome But Not That Awesome

ENCOURAGED AND HUMBLED

On the Way to August!

HOWDY! In this week I have had the pleasure of hanging out with my favorite people. All glory to Jesus where I finally have been seeing my heart delight in Him, His promises & faithfulness, and the gospel MORE. Giving Thanks: -Was able to share life and receive wisdom from Pamela and Ruby! We ate at the delicious Ra Sushi :) Love my sisters!

-Hooray for giftcards and bffs who will go with me shopping for more work tops hehe. It was a success I'd say!

-Thankful to get a half day at work after that one week of overtime to enjoy some fun and sun at Newport beach with my lovely! And SOME PIEOLOGY! oh yeah oh yeah!

-Super super super wonderful to have an evening with my mentor, life giving teacher turned sister in Christ - Lindsey Kelley :) I went to visit her at her new place and its beautiful. She cooked us up a meal and cookies and we enjoyed reading God's word and catching up on what God's been doing in our lives!

-Friday I went to cook for our bible study with Jose- pesto pasta and salad! I think everyone enjoyed it! Then we went on to study the book of Daniel :)

-Saturday I went to see Wolverine with my fam and Red Robin with some of our family friends- the Ocons! 

 -Church this morning was on Luke 9! It was really difficult to see my complacency in my life to love jesus, serve others and to remain comfortable and justifying my sin. But i am seeing the worth of Jesus and don't want to settle for any othet idol. We celebrated my pops bday a day early before my ma goes to hawaii and me to vegas! We were able to give him presents and celebrate his day! We hardly get to because we are usually in hawaii by this time! So it was special! 

 Prayer Requests:

 -THE TIME HAS COME! I AM OFF TO VEGAS MONDAY! please continue to pray throughout the week that faith will come through hearing the gospel! please pray for residents in Vegas to come to realize their sinful and rebellious ways to turn to Jesus. He came rich in mercy, immeasurable grace, and a conventional love that we might come to Him!!! Please continually pray for me to have faith in Christ that He is good and is faithful to His promises. Pray for discernment, compassion, wisdom and love for these people and for me not to isolate myself within this group! -Please pray for God to save my family, but in the meantime for them to see that I LOVE them and desire them to know Christ most of all. Have a nice weekend!