God is good in my trials

For the last four months, I think I've been going through a handful of trials that challenge my heart, my trust in God and how I am able to glorify Him in these situations. I haven't written my thoughts because I tend to over think, bottle it inside, and have a fear of man issue. But here they are now.

Issues.

Oh I've had a good amount of issues that have ached my heart! I do understand everyone have problems.  Good friends have stopped speaking with me for reasons I don't understand or have control of. Health of family continues to worsen and I feel helpless. Arguments with my guy for three weeks back in October or so and it brought out a lot of selfishness and bitterness on my end. Seeing people I care about in my church and life hurting and broken. Carrying burdens for those I love.  Lacking in rest and caught up in busyness. Feeling burnt out. Job stress. Dealing with bad emotions such as anger and self righteousness. Tough conversations about living a life for Christ. Deaths...

I've learned these things 

1. I must trust Gods goodness, surpassing peace, and His complete and absolute sovereignty. Rely on the Holy Spirit

2. Pray in all circumstances, rejoice in all things, persevere in the faith and gospel, read bible

3. Repeat your identity and gods word to yourself. Example, you are a slave to do gods will from my heart, His righteousness, daughter of a Loving father, indwelled by the Holy Spirit.. Etc! Philippians is an encouraging book.
4. See I am broken, messed up, wicked and deep need for Jesus Christ, the Savior, Redeemer, who does all things for my good and sustains all things.
5. LOVE OTHERS. SERVE OTHERS. LISTEN. SPEAK HELPFUL TRUTH. LEARN FORGIVENESS. BE COMPASSIONATE. STRIVE FOR PEACE AND UNITY AND FOR GOD TO GET THE GLORY.

If you speak with me, help me in these areas where I lack and put too much pressure on myself. please prayor me too! Thank you for reading about my transparency. God is good.